Stumbling on the hurdles

It's 15:09, I think I'll always add in the time, makes it easy to see how random my brain feels. I don't think of writing at normal times. The middle of the afternoon and I am already on some sort of downward spiral feeling. I can't recall when I started feeling so down about everything. I need to clean and put the laundry away. I need to clean the floor and vacuum. None of these things do I want to do, not that anyone does but I don't even feel like swimming. I'm tired from lack of sleep, from the lack of support. Feels like even though I'm trying to move forward I'm being crushed by everything else I am dealing with, makes me want to do nothing, makes me feel terribly lazy.

I think today I'm going to go to the bookstore, pick up some ASVAB books, I need a refresher, not being in school for 6 years I've forgotten some formulas for math, I'm not terribly strong in the whole shop and electrical department. Not that I did too poorly on some of the practice questions I've tried. About 50% or so. Not so bad for having done no studying since graduation.

I suppose these entries will mostly be short, kids tend to take most of your time anyways. Which means, time for the pool as its nice out and they would like to do. My abs hurt from the workouts, I'm sure the water will feel good, it isn't such a tough work out that my abs should feel even more stressed from it, not that I don't have to work out again tonight anyways. I suppose I'll hit the store later. Maybe getting my books will help me clean so I can feel I'm getting things rolling.