One sit up muwahahahahahaha

Today was mostly uneventful, full of nothingness and boredom and filling out more applications. This is the hardest time I've ever had finding a job, I'm not terribly surprised, just mildly worried and terribly annoyed. I worked on Baby Grr's costume some more. She is going to be strawberry shortcake. I started it last night, its almost completely done already. I cheated a bit but oh well, who cares, so long as its cute. I will work on Bubbaloo's hopefully by the weekend, he wants to be the guy from scream. I am also thinking we will go to pick up pumpkins this weekend too and do them. I never try to do them too early because its moist in the air here, thick heavy fog all week long, which I wish I could capture on my camera but since I haven't really touched it in weeks thats probably not going to happen anyways. Man I'm lazy.

But not too lazy to not do my working out. 50 sit ups in under 30 minutes. 20 standing push ups as I have almost no upper body strength and so cant do them on the ground. (I WILL get there though.) 20 squats. 40 clam shells. Tons of stretching. A 1/4 mile run around the block. I would say thats pretty good for A) being a complete fat ass B) being lazy as hell C) stopping all sort of exercising due to getting really sick D) being almost completely inactive almost 4 months ago.

On a bright side, I spoke with The Shoulder today, we are, as always, just fine. We spoke on a topic that isn't mine to fully discuss, though needless to say the advice I gave him was spot on and he choose to ignore it and is now annoyed with the situation at hand. He is such a man. I couldn't help but chuckle on the phone and he, fully knowing I had been correct, just suffered through. I told him to call if he needed to rant and rave any time in the near future. We talked for a couple hours, as we tend to do, and then got off the phone because he was tired and needed sleep for work. We said our goodbyes and I love yous, which felt comfortable, like saying it to a relative. I don't know what to say. I think my head has been muddled through all this, I have many close guy friends, but none, except him, that I tell I love you to, and yet, it doesn't feel awkward or over the top, just a simple declaration of the truth. We love each other but then again, I love my sister and I would say I love The British Man and The British Echo. I love Marmar and The Programer and so many others of my friends. I think, even if SES said he loved me, I could easily say it back, mean it and not be hurt even if his had been a slip of the tongue. I tend to truly love someone, completely and wholeheartedly when I am close to them. A friend is just as close as a family member, maybe even more so, given certain histories. It's nice hearing that I'm loved. Marmar sent it in a text the other day, it made me smile, when The Shoulder said it, it felt just as nice. Everyone needs to hear they are loved every now and then, even if it's just in a more platonic way. It makes everything feel better, even things you didn't think would feel any better, like a broken heart.