That's what life is like. Like sitting on a couch in a room with a revolving door. Constantly turning though most people just walk on through it back to the outside. Every so often someone comes in and hangs out but eventually they usually also fall back in line and walk back out the door. It's not so bad, people are meant to come into and fall out of our lives as specific times. Moments in time that define us or change us and then that person leaves. It's when we truly care about that person that we tend to jam the door. No one else needs walk through. So what then when they choose to walk out of it?
You said you loved me and I knew you didn't really know what that meant and I ignored it. I wanted to ignore it because I loved you because I wanted you to know and feel it the same way I do. How could you though. So simple to say you love someone yet the reality of loving them is so much harder. I want you to be happy, I want to be happy, I just wanted us to be happy together yet how easily you let go. No fighting left in you for me. No more real want or desire. I get it but it still hurts.
I'm tired of that. I'm tired of the aching and pain and worry. I should just jam the damn door from now on.
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